My bed’s not made
And my clothes are on the floor dirty
Dishes fill up my kitchen sink
Well what do you think?
I’m not waiting around to see if you like me
I won’t stay around to make anyone like me
So if you’re interested, come and find me and if not
I’ve got a house to clean
My bed’s not made
But I find I like it when you stay
Dishes fill up my kitchen sink
But how I like the way you think
If I’m interested, I’ll want your attention
And if I’m interested, I’ll be nervous
If you’re interested, I’ll probably try to leave
But if you’re really interested, come find me and if not
I’ve got a house to clean
See I’ve got a history of being messy
And I don’t like this mystery so just be real me
I had a dream that I said, “My bed’s not made.”
And you said, “It can wait.”
“But the dishes are filling up my kitchen sink.”
And you said, “Oh but you’re all I see.”
But I woke up to a house to clean
I don’t feel fine
Should I feel fine?
How should I feel?
How should I feel?
Dive in the water
This pool is deep
The bottom seems endless as I sink beneath
You ask me how I feel today
Do you want what’s real or just fine or okay?
You tell me you want to keep
Your head above water today
Don’t wanna get your hair wet
You better let me get you a life vest
Cause I don’t want to worry about you
Slipping beneath the surface, seeing me if you don’t want to
This dim flickering keeps me confused and scared
My eyes wanna turn away but hope keeps me there
And I stareIf darkness would envelope
With dreams no longer a chance
My eyes would surely close up and avert with no advance
But no I stare
At your not too bright a light
Which allows me to stare
With unbelievable comfort no squinting from a glare
And I stare
The bit of light that teases me
With every flicker here then gone
Gives an illusion of permanence
Like a beacon forever on
And I stare
If you’re not gonna shine
Don’t give me none of your time
Please stop confusing me
With your kindness then silence
And your…
Stop teasing me off and on
I want a beacon forever on
Stop teasing me off and on
I need a beacon forever on
No I don’t wanna stare
I walk alone on my way home
People all around
I didn’t hear a sound
You came from behind
To take what’s mine
I fell to the ground
But my heart, it continues to pound
Someone yelled, “He left a mark on this girl.
She’s gonna need some help. Call for help. Get some help for this girl.”
Stitches and surgery
How did this come to be?
This girl who used to walk alone
Is now afraid to leave her home
Sometimes I sit and wonder
What you hoped to gain
By stealing my joy and inflicting such pain
You left a mark on me. And now it’s there
For all the world to see.
Sometimes I just wanna be angry
And give back just what you gave
But what would that say
And what difference would that make?
So I think
You left a mark of violence on me
And I’ll take this mark and make it peace
For all the world to see
Most people say I’m sweet
But there’s more to me than you might think
My smile shows I’m happy
But that smile’s for you it’s not for me
I use that smile
To distract you from my eyes
If you take a deep look
You just might be surprised
As much as I smile in the public eye
There’s a place in me where I endlessly cry
It’s hard to think I’m filled with sorrow
With all the blessings I’ve known
It’s better for you this way
Then you won’t have to find the words to say
If I try to show you
You won’t know what to do
If I try to explain
You won’t know what to say
Maybe someday I’ll try
But for now please just let me hide
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